Live Life Like There's No Tomorrow

~Stronger~

2012-02-12T18:46:00.002+08:00

~You and I~

2012-02-12T18:45:00.002+08:00

Greetings!! =D

so sorry for disappearing for such a long time.

been really busy with classes, homework, studies.

feel like I'm getting old =X ahahaha xD

Things have been going really great lately.=)

Having a very happy life here ;D

there have been ups and downs from the first of January till today =)

Too much laughter. Too much fun. Too little time for studies. XD

Of course. Life is never perfect. Every challenge you face in life, makes you a stronger person =D

As the saying goes, What doesnt kill you makes you stronger =)

Yes. my course is getting tougher now.

I ended my first term (AS level) in november. Immediately, we started A2 [second semester. the last one for my course]

And to be honest, A2 is not as easy as it sounds like .

I can feel the pressure now. And it's getting more and more with each passing day.

Everything I learn now, it's all new. But, at the same time, interesting =)

As for AS, I've learnt most of the topics in secondary school already. So, it made my life much easier.

Now, I have to give tenfold of my hardwork in AS for A2.~

So, you can imagine that A2 is not to have fun and to play with.

It's either you score, or retain for another 6 months and sit for the exam and miss some intakes of some Universities.

Yes. I am the type of person that is determined to finish my studies on time. I dont want to extend. I will feel pressured.=(

It makes me feel like, I am a failure.=(

Got my AS results on the first day of CNY 2012 XD

greatest angpau =D quite satisfied with my results =) but, I was hoping that it would be better so that I dont have to carry so much weight in A2.

But owh well ;D I should be contented =D Gonna try very hard in A2 =)

To answer most people's question on what I wanna do in the future.

I want to pursue my studies in Chemical Engineering.

I know. it's quite rare to hear a girl wanting to pursue her studies in engineering courses. XD

sometimes I wonder if I am a guy =P

I actually wanted Civil Engineering/Mechanical Engineering/Aerospace Engineering.

But, I've been getting lots of advices that those engineering courses are gonna be tough for a girl like me. So yeaaaaa.=( I dont wanna take the risk~

Why I chose Chemical Engineering? honestly, I am still a bit doubtful of my decision XD

i am not sure if I love Chem more of Phy more. =(

I love both equally. But, i dont know to concentrate on which one more.~

But, yea. no more time to waste lar ;D 90% is that I am going for that course =)

Hopefully, I get into NTU. *prays hard*

Hurm. recently. AHh. xD i duno how to put into words.

Found something really shocking. And. I'd be lying if I say it didnt hurt at all =)

Because, it does hurt. A little.

I am not sad. not disappointed. just a little confused by your actions =)

you left me hanging there as if there was hope.

But, i dont blame you =)

Maybe, I got the wrong message ;D

and thanks for making me smile in times when I am down.

And for all those motivations =)

Even if it's not true about my assumption, I still accept and believe my assumption.

Even if I am overthinking, it's for the best.=)

I think it's for the best for me so I wont get distracted down these few crucial months~

I'd choose my studies over you =)

Thanks for everything. Eventhough, you treated me as your best friend =)

I told myself not to trust any sweet words.

But, I think I made a wrong choice for this XD

from now on, no more =P AHAHAHA XD

ok lar. that's all for now. Need to study for my monthly test.

danggggg. =.=

I hope I can update more often =D

byebye~ take care all~

"wo de xin tiao~"

~Best Friend~

2012-01-28T01:59:00.005+08:00

I wanna fall in love with my best friend ;D

and make my best friend the best lover of my life.

which gurl doesnt want her boyfriend to be her best friend before? ;D

~Star~

2012-01-04T21:36:00.001+08:00

A new year.

A new chapter.

A new beginning. =)

Not so new me. But, I am still going to be the same.

By changing myself into a better person =D

Never look back at my mistakes.

Mistakes are there for a purpose. To guide me on my future.=)

resolutions? simple.

To live a happy life.

To have my friends and family around me.

To score in my A-Level.

To get into NTU.

Hopefully, to lose weight XD

To get more fit. ;D

To study well =)

To never disappoint myself.

To never do the same mistakes.

To have fun in life! =D

To spend more time with family and friends.~

To help others in need.

TO BE A BETTER PERSON =)

This is a new star.=D

~Just me~

2012-01-04T21:18:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU~~~~~

I really do! I MISS ALL OF YOU!!!!

I somehow wish I could go back to those times, and do all of them together again.

Is it hard for us to be like last time?=(

I miss those times.

Friendships remain. memories remain.

I can hardly see all of you anymore.

IT KILLS ME.=(

I can hardly talk to every one of you like I used to.

Somehow, I wish that we can all study together. live together. work together.

But,it's impossible. each and every one of us is different. we have our own dreams.

different ambitions~ AHHH!! I hope we can still be like last time~

Imy.Iny.Ily.

~Seconds~

2011-12-30T01:08:00.001+08:00

BOO!;D

~The Name I will Forget~

2011-12-02T00:05:00.001+08:00

I will forget you =)

I hope? haha xD

~Snap~

2011-11-28T20:38:00.001+08:00

Angle. Perspective. Colours. Capture.=)

I think. Taking pretty pictures makes me happy ;D

The sense of satisfaction is always there. ;D

Every single perfect shot makes me jump, scream and smile the whole day ;D

Well, I guess by taking pictures I can actually get away from any stress I have.

Take a few minutes. Take few great shots. And just have fun with every angle ;D

That's the fun part of photography~ I am not a pro~ just an amateur having fun

I dont own a dslr just for the sake of owning it. But to me, I own it so I can improve my skills.

So to those of you who thinks I have dslr just for the sake of having it, boohoo =P

I would try to take up more skills along the way ;D There's still a long way for me to go~ =)

~harsh reality~

2011-11-25T22:35:00.001+08:00

this is reality.

~Get it,no?~

2011-11-25T22:32:00.001+08:00

Always. =P

I do it to certain people XD

~More than Agree~

2011-11-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

so true ;D

~YESH~

2011-11-12T12:14:00.001+08:00

undeniable =D

~Colour Up My Life~

2011-11-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

~Sweet ;D~

2011-11-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

happy ever after XD

~Smirk~

2011-11-07T00:32:00.001+08:00

So true XD

~Understood~

2011-11-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

You should know that..

I am not the kind of person.that matches you~

look at me.

PFFT.

~Flirt~

2011-11-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

AHAHAHA XD SO TRUE XD

~Tears~

2011-10-31T11:36:00.004+08:00

so true ;D

~You know~

2011-10-26T01:04:00.004+08:00

You know what to say.

You know when to say.

And you always know what to do.

you always know best.

But. why?;D

~forever alone XD~

2011-10-22T13:58:00.003+08:00

AHAHAHA XD SO FUNNY XD

~I whale~

2011-10-22T13:51:00.003+08:00

so cute XD

~I had a dream~

2011-10-22T13:43:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHAHA!

XD so funny! XDDDDD

~The boys~

2011-10-20T07:59:00.003+08:00

new video by SNSD.=p

am i the only one who finds their dance so freaking hot? XD

~Strong~

2011-10-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

moments like this.

I need you guys even more.

I really do.='(

~Agree ;D~

2011-10-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

HoHoHo~~ xD

~Again~

2011-10-12T07:51:00.002+08:00

Miahae~

~pretentious~

2011-10-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

I found out a truth today ;D

and it happened so that, it was about me?

I was quite shocked.

I didnt expect that to happen.

I never thought that, there would be "stories" about me behind my back.

You judged me before knowing the real me?

You gave me bad comments before talking to me?

Calling me a flirter? You sure? Do you have any proofs to show that I am a fliter?=)

For your info. I am not =D

I dont go around, flirting with guys.

I find it rather disgusting =)

You said that I am close to the guys in my class?

And you hated me before because I'm always with the guys?

how shallow minded were you? ;D

I wasnt even close to any one of them!!

I dont text. I dont chat. The only thing I do is "Hi. Owh. Bye"

and usually. I am not the one engaging conversations with the guys.

I am always with the gurls.

And wow. you judged me that way. XD

I accept everyone just the way they are.

I just cant believe it till now.

And to tell you honestly. I was from a co-ed school

TO me, guys are no foreign creatures.

I talk to everyone in the class. I dont have a specific target like I need to talk to guys only.

No. that's not my thinking =)

Think what you want. But. I know where I stand.

I just cant believe that you were being so pretentious to me.

When i was being so friendly.

I accepted you the way you are. but you talked behind my back.

when I didnt do anything wrong =)

the worst part is. you didnt know me at all. and you dare to give bad comments about me?

WOW. bravo =)

But, thank goodness you changed your perspectives towards me now.

I will still keep a safe distance from you.

Wow. this is really an eye opener =)

I dont need people who pretend to be nice to me.

I dont need that kind of companion =)

~every teardrop is a waterfall~

2011-09-24T00:27:00.003+08:00

hi~~ ;D

yesh. i am updating this not because I have updates.

but I just need to pour things.

tomorrow is MPW finals.

pfft. I am not even excited for it.

it's freaking history.

I cant remember my own history and you expect me to understand other's histories?=P

ok. back to the real thing..

i think. it has been three weeks things have been going on really weird for me.

I try not to overthink.

Stress. Pressure. Studies. Lack of confidence.Running out of time. Trial.

Neighbours have been really..b*tchy these days.

Renovations. Quarrels. Child abuse.

Everyday, there will be someone screaming, shouting, cursing.

Yesh. It has been weeks.

I cant take this environment anymore. I think I will go crazy if I were to go on like this.

I have my own life, my own problems. I have a very very tough time here already.

and you guys dont have to create more problems over silly things.

Be a little considerate.

I really wanna leave this place.

I want a quiet environment.

I dont want my future to be affected by you guys.

Try being in my situation. And you would know how tough is the phase I am going through.

This is not a game. It's not like. you guys can screw my life and I can give it another try next time. No. it's not like that.

If you guys do screw it up, I will miss an opportunity. Time wasted.

Energy wasted. Money gone to waste.

I am not being selfish.

I know I should just ignore.

But, I have been ignoring so much, it comes to the break off point.

I have been tolerating for so long.

and tolerance has its limits too.

This neighbourhood is shared by all. Not by an individual.

OK. maybe I am exaggerating. maybe i am feeling this way because I am under stress..

But, think of it this way.

When you are already having a bad time, you try to be strong.

You try to ignore every single thing that gets into your way.

You stay positive.

You try to overcome every single obstacle. but, at one point...

a small matter will cause a great effect on you. And, you'd break down.

and the next thing you'd do is, get over it. stand up. and be strong =)

Dear neighbour on my left, you're the most inconsiderate person I've ever met in my entire life. I have been tolerating with you for years. I try to ignore what you always do. You curse so much when you walk by my house. Yet, I dont mind. I tolerate when you always destroy my Saturday and Sunday mornings. But, last night, when my dad told you nicely to be more considerate, you felt so insecure. You are one insensitive woman. You were scolding, shouting and caning your son outside at 12.30am. When told about your mistakes, you were off balanced. And you insulted my dad? How shallow are you? I've never seen someone like you.

Dear neighbour on my right, every morning, your child will cry just because he doesnt want to go kindergarten. My sleep is disturbed. I dont blame your son. your son has his reasons to not go to kindergarten. But, you cant just let things that way. Something must be done. however, you guys as parents, will start scolding him, and he will start crying very loudly. EVERYDAY. Still, I tolerate. I need my sleep too. I am tired. I need sleep. YET. I dont mind. But, just now it was a turning point. I could no longer tolerate. Both you husband and wife were quarreling so loudly. banging stuffs here and there? and your son was crying so loudly. and for God's sake, it was already night time.. dinner time.. I need to study too.

Dear neigbours above. how long does it take for you guys to renovate a house? it's gonna be three weeks soon.=.=

I get up from sleep early because of all the drillings and bangs.
YET. I still dont mind.

In fact, I took it positively. I thought.

"okay. since you guys woke me up, I'll just study."

But nahh. today was really too over for me.

Headache. MPW finals preparations. flu.

and those drillings and bangs..were...too...much!

I tried to sleep. But, I couldnt.=)

SO YEA.

maybe I am over exaggerating. like i said earlier.

I might act this way because I am already having a tough time.

and every single thing that happens around me, will annoy me for no particular reasons.=)

And, I guess. after all these, I start to think alot.

Things start to hit me from all directions.

I accidentally went to look at my brother's pictures taken in school and...

Memories started to flow in.

And. I cant stop crying..

I know. friendship remains.=) and make room for new friends.=D

I understand that.=) But sometimes, when you think of memories..

You either laugh or cry just by thinking about them =)

I do laugh at certain memories. But to some I cry because time flies too fast and memories cant be brought back.=)

I cant believe I can get this weak at this time. AHH! so not me!!! *bangs head*

I need strength. I need to be strong.

I know I can do it.

I just need. a push. a word of motivation..telling me I can do it.=)

I dunno what has gotten me this way.

Maybe. So many things have been happening and one slight hit makes me weak.

Even a strong person like me has her weakest hours kay?=P

I just wanna cry. After crying, I do feel better.=)

And no. this is not my normal me. I usually dont cry that easily.

On the bright side. I know I can go through this =)

I will stay positive.

Because that's what I am.
I wont give up that easily because of all these.

I know this is just a test.It's a tough one I guess? XDDD

After getting pissed , I am cooled off.

And I am gonna stay positive from now onwards.=)

I have people here who are willing to support me no matter what.=D

thanks..=) I love you guys =D

Tears fell.

But every single tear will make me stronger.=)

I believe in that.

And yes. I feel so much better for spilling everything out here.

my loyal blog xD

And yesh =)

I believe that, after letting out, things will get better.

I will forget about all these and move on ;D

Afterall. you guys know me .ahem ahem ;D

I let go off things easily. AHEM XD AHAHAHA XD
Perasan betul =P

CHEERS! =)

xoxo~

"run run run~~"

~River Flows In You~

2011-09-20T00:07:00.004+08:00

hey-low.=)

So sorry for abandoning my blog for almost one month.

I've been really busy lately. trial was a week after test.

A very hectic month for me.

More like. Hurm. Three hectic months. september,october and november.=)

Things have been going up and down.

College is fine. Studies are well.

Dramas have been going on lately. But well, I'll just enjoy the shows.

Thank goodness that I am not involved.

Childish dramas. Kindergarten dramas.

As people grow older, they tend to be more immatured huh?

Maybe I am wrong. I dont know.=) Prove me wrong then.=)

It's already September. Hurm. Time flies huh?

And yes. it's kinda sad that I left high school already.

College life is not any easier as it seems.

The pressure is more than in high school.

It's either you do, or you fail, badly.

It's not easy. Especially when I am taking the fast track programme.

It's really tough to catch up. I need to be really disciplined and attentive.

It's a real heavy programme for me. I have faith.~

These are the people who are far apart by distance but close by hearts =)

Yi Xin and HuiJie are both in KL. Sharyn, in Singapore. Ah Hon. stuck here in penang with me~ XD Josephine, still studying =P Rachel, in Kedah.

AHH! Imissyou all! =(

Hurm. These days. I dont know what is wrong with me.

But, I've been thinking a lot. LIKE A LOT.

I dont know why. but memories should be memories.

and I should create more memories.

I do feel like I am drifting apart from my high school friends.

Hurm. Maybe not really lar. Just that, we are not seeing as much as we used to in school~

We are not talking to each other as much as we used to. But time to time, we update ourselves with each other.

Somehow, I wish to go back form 5, and redo everything again.

I dont mind doing SPM again. Honestly, SPM was the best time. WHY?

I dunno. It seemed like we got really really close during that time.

Those crazy moments we had. Those McD moments. Those tears. Those laughters. Those texts. Those video calls.

Those midnight chats. Those kpop craze moments. Those musical practices. Those karate trainings. Those stay-backs.

I miss them. I really do. It's september now.

More than half of year 2011.

Time flies too fast.

Everyone has their own life now to deal with. I have my own one too.

I hope distance wont ruin our friendships. I hope so.

IMY and ILY..

Thanks for the awesome and great memories!

BESIDES THAT! On the bright side.=P I still have a few of my close friends in Penang!

Thank goodness for that.although we are all busy with our studies, we still manage to catch up with each other.=)

I am lucky enough to have them here in penang.

The picture above are the karate fishes. except. Swee Hon of course XD

Distance is just a number. Friendship means a lot than that =) Cheers.

I will keep every single one of you close to my heart.

I love every single one of you. =D

Cheers~~~

P/S=writing this in tears. unforgettable memories [less than three]

"These happy tears are for you =)"

~Life ;D~

2011-08-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

~Worldwide~

2011-08-27T11:05:00.001+08:00

sweet =D

~Mr simple~

2011-08-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

Mr Simple simple simple ~
love love love! XD

~What makes you beautiful~

2011-08-23T23:01:00.001+08:00

got so addicted to this song !! =D
so darn cute!!! =D

~imperfection~

2011-08-16T23:18:00.001+08:00

Imperfection makes my life perfect.
Get it? NO? ;D

~Overthink~

2011-08-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

omgdness=X
so true about what I am doing now T_T

~Right Next To You~

2011-08-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

And I am holding on to every ounce of strength I have.
I know I can go trough this phase.
No matter how tiring life can be, I believe that I can make it through this difficult phase that is temporary.
I have faith. I have hope. I have dreams.
All I need is you being next to me.

I believe everyone is different.
life goes on.
Everyone makes mistakes and he should be forgiven for his unintentional mistakes.
But, under one condition, he should realise his own mistakes and try not to repeat them again.

"I want you by my side"

~Signal Patterns~

2011-08-13T18:03:00.002+08:00

HELLO XD
yesh~ I feel so happy because I just finished my Pengajian Malaysia's Mid-Term~
I feel awesome now~ Waiting for the finals and I can forget about it forever!!!
SO yea, I got bored and I started doing this test.
It is called the signal patterns.
you peeps can try too..The link is right below.
Here are the results to my signal patterns thing. XD
I just wanna know if you peeps agree or not~
These are only the top 10 traits out of 90 traits in me O.O

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Friendly

You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.

You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time.

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.

You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.

You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.

Calm

You rarely become irritated, generally accept people as they are, take things as they come, and feel relaxed in most situations.

You do not let a minor annoyance escalate to a confrontation. You don't regularly snap at those around you or fly off the handle with little provocation.

Poised

You tend to feel at home wherever you find yourself, even in unfamiliar settings, with new people. It takes a lot to rattle you, and when rattled you recover quickly and gracefully.

You are usually not self-conscious or nervous when you're in an unfamiliar environment or with people you don't know.

Scrupulous

You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.

You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

Organized

You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.

You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.

Figure out yours in the link below.

HAVE FUN! =D

CLICK HERE

By the way, my results are quite accurate =P

" You, only you~"

~a big smile~

2011-08-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

~best friend~

2011-08-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

~and you should know~

2011-08-08T22:38:00.001+08:00

~Girlfriends~

2011-08-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

And i miss all of you so much
I really do ='(

~Shh~

2011-08-07T10:17:00.001+08:00

OH SO TRUE XD
I prefer to be loud than quiet~ =P

~Play, Pause, Stop, Rewind ~

2011-08-06T00:42:00.002+08:00

~heart~

2011-08-03T22:15:00.002+08:00

ahahaha! XD
To that someone ;D
It's not about the intimate time you both have, but, the heart that counts ;D

~First Love~

2011-08-03T22:01:00.001+08:00

And first love stays in your heart and mind forever no matter how much you try to delete him/her. =)
The best experience ever.;D

~IMY?~

2011-08-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

So true~

~Cheesy~

2011-08-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

Then make a move ;D
LOL

~For the first time~

2011-07-31T10:32:00.003+08:00

We're smiling but we're close tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

Hi! =P
I know~ I have been missing in action in blogging for quite some time already.
Reasons: Lazy, studying.=P

So I just had my monthly test.=)
Physics was okay~ hurm~ well, still need to strive my best in physics to get into the course that I really want ;D
Maths was a silent killer.=( I never knew maths could be so tough~ T_T mechanics especially~ sigh~I hope this wont discourage me in my interest for maths.=P
Chemistry was okay too~ =) at least something I could answer~ XD
Just hoping for the best lar.=)
Just the first monthly test. and hopefully, the next one would be better.=P

Hurm. life has been great lar.;D
Cousins came down yesterday. I had an awesome night with them! =)
Dinner then arcade the midnight movie with them..=P
Captain America! XD It was nice lar.~
If I dont fall asleep in the cinema then the movie is nice.=P
And for this movie, I stayed up wide awake. so yea XD
Reached home at 3.30am~ First time hanging out till that late.=P
AWESOME night with them~
I wished I could have more bonding time with them soon~ =)
I didnt have the chance to talk much with them.=(
Too little time~And I was a lil' tired. =P
Hopefully I could meet them in September maybe? =D

Last friday was awesome too! [22/7/2011]
redbox with classmates after class!
awesome bonding time with them!!
I love every single one of them~ AWESOME PEOPLE!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
We laughed, we cried, we danced to the songs. We had the time together.
Anger was flaring too..
ahem ahem XD well, something happened and I dont wish to say it here.=)
Just that to that someone, just be considerate the next time.=)
Things might not be the same as before. But, it takes things to mend things back..
Check out the pictures of the outing ;D
CLICK HERE

The day after the outing, fruuze with Boo, Loo, Jing Ping, Han Ni, Andrea and Dips. Ber-bonding again! =P Awesome time together with them! =)
Best opportunity for us to get to know one another.=)
Two months in college already. Everything seems to be going smoothly.=D
Studies, still okay.
Friends, awesome.
=)
Stress? On and Off ;D

What else to update? XD My dear Sharyn asked me to update.
And honestly, I had no idea what to update but when I type, I cant seem to stop..
=P

So yea, XD I thought of something now.~
I'll talk about the top 5 common questions I always get.

1) Did you do anything to your hair? rebonding? treatment? [before I permed my hair]
~ Nope.=) I dont do any treatments, rebonding with my hair. Naturally straight and brownish-black

2) What shampoo do you use?
~ Ahh..Currently I am using Clear. The pink colour one.=P

3) What do you do with your face? No pimples at all!
~ Says who no pimples?=P ISH XD Anyway~ I dont do anything to my face. Just normal daily wash. Current face product : Biore. The purple one.=P

4) Do you apply blusher on your face?
~ Me?! Make ups?! No! XD I dont spend my time making up myself. seriously.=P I will use that time to sleep rather than make up XD for now lar.=p In the future, I dont know ;D No blusher on my face.=) And I know, I always blush T_T I cant help it right? T_T

5) [This one tops them all.=P] Do you have a boyfriend?
~ Seriously? XD that question? even my family members think I have one. Do I look like a person with a boyfriend? Sigh.=P Honestly, I dont have one~ =) Study comes first before relationships. I cant even handle my ownself. Imagine my significant half.=P unless the significant half appears when I am studying XD

I wish to forget about what happened few months ago. when I was working. that was the biggest mistake of my life.=.= I wouldnt even count that as a relationship ;D all in all, i still despise you! =) and you should know who you are. there's nothing you could do to make me forgive you~ AND you didnt even say you're sorry! You blamed it on me! you think you are right? and you cursed on me. What goes around comes around. I know that what I did was the best for me. you know what? FCK OFF SON OF A BITCH! =) seriously, the only thing that I can make myself forgive you is to kick you in the cr*tch. you deserve that because you didnt respect me.=) LOL. sorry for being so vulgar. T_T

hey there sweetheart, stop being one.
it kills the people around you. XD
and another you. why do you have to smile so cutely? XD
too darn cute!! =P

the feeling for the first time~~~
That's all for now lar. ;D
Will update soon. I hope?=P
Cheers! =D

"it's written on your face"

~By My Side~

2011-07-08T22:37:00.001+08:00

SWEETNESS ;D

~Inconsolable~

2011-07-03T23:16:00.004+08:00

Call me emo,
Call me blind,
But this is not what I chose to be.

Hello! XD
I am so extremely sorry for abandoning my blog for weeks! XD
You know. I am a busy girl right now!
College started on the 6th of June..
College has been great to me lately! XD
More homework are up now! T_T
They are stacking each other now..~ And...
Except the part that I "attracted" two stalkers.ewwww..XD
But yeah...I acted coldly so I guess, they are annoyed by me already.=P
BOOHOO..Despo people. Get a life! XD

I've met awesome people in college!
People I can turn to whenever I fall.=)
People I can talk about anything at anytime! XD
People who never fail to make me laugh everyday!
People who always tease me, poke me, bully me..hmph XD
People who never failed to put smiles on my face.
Ahh..college life is getting way awesome now!
=)
Cant wait to go for movie with them this friday! =D
I hope to create more happy memories with them..

Well..xD
To be honest with you, I was very afraid on the first day of college.
I knew nobody during the orientation except Farhanis. I was sticking to her all the time.=P
And I was really afraid I couldnt make friends. xD
I tend to be shy around new people..[yea right. you're sonoisy. people get scared of you got larh! XD]
But yea..Now things got better.=) I get to tag along with my new friends comfortably already.
Eventhough some are from the same school and some are from different schools..
But I guess, what makes us hang along together is that, we let the past be past and we accept each other for our differences.=)
Awesome people..Ahh! XD I Love them! =)
And thank goodness.,xD They dont speak mandarin..otherwise, it'd be harder for me.=S
for your info, I am studying A-levels in KDU now.=)
So far so good larh~
Still can cope..~Afterall, it's the first semester only..Second sem nxt year! ARGH XD
I hope to get along well with my classmates too.=)
Hopefully, I experience tonnes of unforgettable memories with my classmates! xD
Coming to 5th week I'm studying in KDU already~
It's a fun place to be! =D
And yea..xD during my first two weeks, whenever I had breaks, I would return home and sleep..
But now, I DONT! XD I'll just hang around in the library with friends, joke and laugh in the discussion rooms.
okay~ dont complain to KDU please XD

Hrm~ Things have been going well.=)
Well, hey Mr ;D
You're confusing me
Well, I dont give a damn anymore.
I'm just gonna treat you as a normal friend.
And if I act cold, I am sorry.=P
i dont know why. But yea. I was jealous.
I am not sure if that was part of your plan. But now, I dont give a damn already.=)
I think I wont be jealous for now after consulting someone ;D
Btw, you seem nice. perhaps, we should just know each other more?=)
you're great. but sometimes, confusing ;D
So yea..XD happy?=)

Anyway. xD I have to go offline already.
Class at 9am tomorrow. PFFT XD
so lazy~
till, then, chowz!
stay tuned for more updates! =D

"I'm leavin' never looking back again"

~SMACK~

2011-06-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

CM,thanks. you scare me.=) I dunno why, but you do.
It's not like I am shy or what.
But, you scare me.
I wonder how am I gonna face you for the next few months~
I know stuffs about you eventhough you dont really talk to me.=)

And to another person,
why do you always make me smile?~.~
LOL..XD

~Actor~

2011-06-22T07:47:00.002+08:00

OH BY THE WAY~ ;D
you are such a playboy!!
=D
PFFFFFTTT..XD
damn~~ you just cant stay single afterall huh?
one after another..
hormones raging ah? so old already still raging..
PERVERT!! =D

Wow..you really know how to twist your words to get a girl..
DAMN..XD so not truthful~ So desperate..
HELLO~~ ;D
you'll find one..I guess this is ur 7th time? AHAHAHAHAHAHA =D
what a joke!
bitch lar you. XDDDD
Not even for 2 months, you got a new one already? XD
you are such a joke lar!=D
i wonder why you are so desperate..LOL..=.=
all in all, i still hate you..
u top the list of my list of people I hate..
actually, you are the only one in the list..XD
And yes, I didnt trust you at all..=)
I doubted you a lot~
and thank goodness I didnt fcking believe you for everything that you said..
BULLSHITS.=D
CHEERS!
PEACE YO!..=.=

~;D~

2011-06-22T07:39:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog.=P
Have been busy lately..;D
just a random and quick post..XD

I know you want me, I made it obvious that I want you too~

Here's the situation, been through every nation.
nobody's ever made me feel the way that you do.
you know my motivation, given my reputation,
please excuse me I dont mean to be rude..
But, tonight I'm loving you..

That tonight I'm loving you.=D

P/S to another person= I hope you are not mad now. XD by now should be cooled down already?=P

N to you stalker, CM..;D thanks for the compliment? LOL XD Be nice to me ;D

Cheers!
I can see good days ahead now.=P

"You're the reason I smile~"

~Complicated~

2011-05-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

Greetings..=P
It's 1 am now and I cant sleep..So I decided to update my blog..=P
many things are going on my mind now.
Rawr..=(
Anyway..XD
I have a few things that I have been worrying..

1st..about college..XD
I am so blur..I am going college without any friends I know..
Alone..so i am gonna be so lost and blur in college..XD
I hope that I'll be alright..
I dont have any siblings older than me..I am the eldest in the family..xD
SO, I am not exposed to anything and I'm making my first step.
To show a good example for my brother next time.=)
Very very blur on what to do for orientation..
I had terrible memories about orientation for my high school..=P
Dont wanna mention anything about those memories, but the orientation was horrible..xD
I didnt get to know everyone..=.=" Just knew a few..xD and the activities were lame..
OKAY..enough information..=P
So right now..I am going alone..I am going to be independent from now on..=)
Gonna be braver..Ahh! XD
I hate growing up..I still want my parents to look after me at college..
Boohoo..xD I am still a kid..xD
Anyway, I am kinda scared to go college as I know NOBODY there..SERIOUSLY..XD
I hope to make new friends..=)
And I hope it'll come easy..XD I am kinda shy among strangers ..
[please lar..you talk nonstop, laugh so loud, anything also can blabber out..please lar..=P you will get friends soon. a lot of people like you]-these are what my friends normally say to me..pfft..=P really meh??? XD
I hope so lar..=( I am hoping for the best. I dont wanna end up alone in class while others have their great time in college~
College is supposed to be fun..Well, that was what I heard..XD
I have phobia because when I was about 10 or 11 years old, I went to a BM tuition alone with no friends..I didnt make any friends..Except one malay gurl..=)
Who sat next to me..=D
I am kinda paranoid..=( I am afraid the same thing would happen again..
I have changed into a different person from whom I was 8 years back.
But, still, the fear is there.=(
I just hope I can make friends..=D
This is a new chapter and a new beginning of my life..=)
I hope it comes easy..=D
Anyway, just to inform all of you readers. I am taking up GCE A-levels in KDU on the 6th of June, 2011..
So wish me all the best! XD
kinda nervous though~
Yet excited to study back..=P
7 months since I finished my high school..;D

sigh..my brother is going to KL 8.30 in the morning later..=(
He's having some trainings in KL..and he promised to get me things back..=P wahahahaha
XD
i am such a good sister..=P
SOBS..i dunno why but I will miss him so much..
No one will fight with me for tv,computer..
no one will disturb me..
No one to talk to about kpop.Uwaa
despite the times we fought, he is the best brother I could ever have..
He pampers me with things..He always give in to me..=(
I know..I should be the one giving in.BLEK..T_T
I just want him to be here.=( I dont want anyone leaving me in my life..=(
He'll be coming back on the 11th which is a day before my birthday..Thank goodness for that..;D haha..XD
Anyway, I'll just hope for the best for him..=)
Just hope that he will succeed in everything he does..=D
May the force be with him..=P
Always hoping that he is fine no matter where he is..=D
Love ya bro..=)

I think that's all..=P
Off to chat with my friends..;D
Updates soon!.=)
Cheers!

"Waiting for you is like waiting for a shooting star."

~A part ~

2011-05-27T11:50:00.003+08:00

A part of me..
some where I cant find it in myself..~

Still thinks of you..
Still misses you..
Still loves you.
And still wants you..

Just a part of me..=)

A fragment of a wonderful experience and memory..=D

~Pissed~

2011-05-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

You are the reason..
that I am paranoid of going back there.
Even a glance over that place kills me~
As if it is about to engulf the whole of me..
And never will I be seen in this world.~

HOLLA..=D
so sorry for not updating my blog these days..
like anyone cares..T_T i think there's zero reader on my blog already..
Sad I know..But, it doesnt really matter..=D
Afterall, the purpose of having this blog is for me to express out my actual feelings..
more like a diary..but it's public..=) so yeah..;D sokay if anyone reads this or not..=D

Anyway~ what i have been doing?
Wow ;D Since I resigned, life has never been better..
HELL yea..XD
I was sick..TWICE..=.=
1st, I was down with cough,sore throat and flu only..That was the first week after I resigned..
The second week, I was down with a fever, cough, flu and sore throat..
Yeah..It was miserable..=.=
It's like one second I am recovered and the next, I am down with a terrible fever..pfft..XD

Moving on~~
Everyone seems to be so busy with studies already..
Except me..I'm slacking behind..T_T
even form 6 started already..EXCEPT me..=(

Racheng went to AIMST yesterday to study her foundation in science there and continue on with her pharmacy course later..=D
Of course I miss her! I feel a lil ache in my heart, but it's alright..
I know this is the best for her.=)
she's one of my closest friends besides sharyn and the others..a lot okay..XD
but Racheng was the one who went crazy with me with those k-pop craze last year..
Stress free with her around..=D we would joke about anything..
And we would tell each other about our "husbands" XDD
But now, she has a real husband..ahem..=p unlike me who still have a "virtual husband" .XD
I'll just have to wait patiently for the right one..=P AHEM...XD
It doesnt kill if I am single for the rest of my life.=)
I know I have great people surrounding me..=D
Although I wished to get married one day..with the man of my life.=P
secrets shared, problem solved, laughters shared, friendships bonded closer than ever..=)
I'm definitely gonna miss her..
And I am not gonna be selfish by holding her back to Penang so that she can be with me and not pursue her dreams.
Of course I am not like that..=D
Anyway, I wish her all the best in everything she does there.
Hopefully she can get used to the environment there..=)
And hopefully..nobody bullies her..WHO ever that DARES to bully her, I'll chop their heads off! =P
Sigh..I'll miss you always Rachel..=( Duno why, but, you should know..T_T
you were the first one whom I looked too when I was down last year..=(
We would text about our problems..And we would console each other..
We would text each other about our favourite k-pop boy bands who were going to perform on TV..
We would chat till 2 or 3 in the morning while watching our favourite k-pop boy bands' variety shows on youtube..=(
I MISS those racheng..T_T
I miss those times..

Huijie recently received a great news..=D
She has been accepted to some peguruan course..=D
Which means, she is leaving Penang too if she's to take up that offer..
She's going to KL..furthur than me and Racheng..but nearer than me and Shalim~ XD
I'm definitely gonna miss her too..T_T
The one whom I poured my secrets and problems when I was working in SK..=(
Thanks for everything..You always give me random presents too..
SIGH.
one by one of you, leaving me alone in Penang?! LIKE THAT LARH!..=P wahahahha..XD
Sokay..I understand that this day would come.
just that, I never thought it'll come so fast when we are having so much fun together..
Still cant accept the reality..
But, I have to..life goes on..=D

Thinking of Racheng, Huijie and Sharyn brought me back to the times when we were in Genting..The good times we had..SIGH..
I'll never forget..And the hang outs with them~ Aww..=(
Time went by too fast when we were having fun..
The craziness we had with each other..
Without feeling awkward and things like that..=(
SIGH..
I miss them! I miss us! T__T
I wonder if we will be like now in the future..I hope we will.=D
Cheers to all of you!
All the best and I will keep you guys in my heart and mind always..

I LOVE EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU~

Anyway..XD I am not sure if I am PMS or what..
Pfft..I hope it's not PMS..=D
Because as far as I know, I am not the kind of girl who gets PFS every month..;D
What the hell am I crapping?! XD
Anywayyy~~ XD I duno why..
But these days, I get mad at "this person" easily..
Let's just name this person, jerk..=D
JERK..=D definitely a jerk..=)
Well, I'm gonna be vulgar from this point onwards..
You can actually scroll down and go pass this part if you dont wanna read..=P
Afterall, I am releasing my anger..

okay..this fcked up jerk.=D
seriously..I fcking hate him..if that's even right..=)
I despise him..he's even worse than the guy whom I used to be annoyed of...
Hurm..What had made me so mad of him? SERIOUSLY?!
He doesnt have a clue why i hate him and avoid him..
Well, I make it so clear that he doesnt get it..
He's one big dumb dodo!..=D
Oh hell yea! I wished to tell the whole world what kind of jerk he is! =D
He might think I am a bitch to him..

TO that fcked up bastard,
It's okay!.=D GO ahead and tell your friends your fcking lie..=D
No one would ever believe you if they were to find out MY part of story..=)
They havent heard my part yet.
And of course, your friends would blame everything on me.
It's okay! =D i know who's in the wrong the first place.=)
Even if my friends were to hear your stories, they would think that you are a jerk
Despite all the things that you have done..
Seriously..you have done nothing.
You pushed me into one dark corner and actually harassed me with your words..=)
Well, I didnt mind. And I could actually sue you for something that you have done on me before.=D
But I chose not to because it would create a real havoc into your life and you might lose everything..=)
Seriously, GET A LIFE.
stop bothering me. Cant you see? I hate everything about you.
INSIDE and OUT..
you dont make me happy..Instead, you put me in a state of misery.
HAPPY?! fcking happy with your actions?! I'm sure you are..
You're one fcked up bastard.=D
son of a bitch..pfft..
Seriously! Because of you, because of you being so selfish, I am so paranoid to pay them a visit.so paranoid of landing one of my feet at the entrance..
So afraid..all I could do is to stare from afar..
It hurts..Of course..Even when I pass by that shop, I'll get this eerie feeling..
As if someone is staring at me with anger..
Do you know that?! FUCK.of course you dont..=D
you're just one dumb ass..=D
You are making me so afraid of going back there no matter how much I missed that place..
SERIOUSLY
everytime I pay a visit there, you never failed to text me about meeting up with me.
I HATE IT..
cant you see? i've been rejecting all of the meet-ups..=.="
wanna know something? I seriously dont give a fuck about your messages anymore..=)
I know..You were trying to ruin my mood when I was in the mall having fun..
You would send me messages asking for explanations in the middle of me having fun.
You would make your messages look so serious and miserable just to lure me into your trap..
And you would make yourself look so miserable when you cant meet me..
It wont work on me..=)
And i know..you always have your plan of ruining my perfect day and mood..Seriously..=D

I AINT THAT DUMB.

I know what's dignity..I know what is pride..
Stuffs that you dont know.=)
You know what? SHUT the hell up!..=.=
when i say I dont wanna see you, I mean it.
You are the stubborn one..who is always looking for trouble..and then, you put the blame on me!
saying that I am the most evil person on earth that put your life into miseries?!=)
YOU..YOU YOU YOU!!!!!!!!
I wished I could just give you a tight slap on your face and leave a mark there for the rest of your life to remind you what you've done to me..=D
I wished to throw some punches and break some bones..Because you look so fragile..
I wished to kick you in the b*lls until you cant satisfy yourself anymore..
I know I am going overboard, but I know. these actions wont happen..=)
Because I know what's right and what's not..unlike you..=)
Even when I told you it was wrong to do "that", you didnt give a damn..=D
Of course, you tried to hold yourself from doing that, but what about me?
You scared me..seriously..you gave me a sense of fear..that I have never felt before when I was alone with you.
I had imagined you doing crazy things on me..Like hurting me...
Seriously..I was terrified..about you..everything..
I seeked for protection from everyone around me..Not to show that I have more people on my side than yours.
But because, I was scared that you'd hurt me..
Cant you see how scared I am? Until crazy thoughts filled my mind?
CANT YOU FUCKING SEE?!
and why cant you leave me alone? I am not the bitch you are looking for =)
Even If i am a bitch, i'll be the high-class one..=P pfft..XD
as i said earlier, I have dignity and pride.=)
I am not gonna fall easily for you fcking traps.=D
Hurm~ And you know what?
You're one faker..=D
Yeah..you should know better than me..=)
After "something" happened, you really showed your temper..=D
Well, I guessed it right..And I went to look for my protection just before I stepped in there.=)
We both entered that place and I was right!..=D
You threw tantrum the moment I landed my foot on the entrance.=D
You threw things so hard that it didnt sound like an accident but on purpose..
It's okay..=)
I could see the fire in your eyes btw..Like you wanted kill me or something..=)
You were all so moody the whole day..You didnt talk to anyone.
You think I didnt realise the big faker in front of me? Of course I did!.=D
because you were trying to get my attention as much as you could.=D
FU lar..=)
anyway..another incident of you being a faker is that time.
I called for your colleague..I guess, you heard my call..And poof! =D you're such a great actor..back into actions..with swift hand movements..and emotions..fuck..=D
when I handed over your colleague his drinks, you followed him..=)
And handed him a box of cigarette..
you actually held the box face up to me..were you trying to show me that you are back to your normal self after what happened?=D
You told me before that I was the one who changed you..
That because of me, you werent the quiet type of person..
And you stopped smoking after hearing my advices..
I am quite impressed I actually did that..But, I am not sure if you were just trying to win myattention.=)
Which obviously didnt after what you have done.=D
Of all times for you to hand over that box of cigarette, but, why during that time when I wanted to hand over the drinks to your colleague?
were you trying to show me something?=D
of course I was not impressed and I didnt feel anything..
But seriously, get something done with your acting..it sucks to the max!=D
oh well, it's your life.=) if you're gonna turn your life into hell, go on ahead and smoke..
SMOKE until you die.=D
because I dont give a fuck.=)
I was trying to be a nice friend and gave you advices.
But you thought of it as an advantage..
and tried to put a trick on me by going back to the old and useless habits so you could get my attention back..
it wont work on me..=)
Owh, there are tonnes of things I dislike about you..=D
Seriously, you didnt respect me as a woman/lady/girl..=)
SERIOUSLY.=D
you scared the hell out of me each second I was with you..
It was fun at first and it turned out to be hell after the 1st week.
I didnt respect you when I barely even knew you and you asked money from me..
what more, from a female..=)
tell me, what would I think about you?
some cheapo?=D
When you are in a tight finance, control your money flow..
instead of going out on wee hours spending money and come complaining to me that you dont have much money left to live on.
like i give adamn..it's your life. not mine. why should I help you when you were the one who caused all these troubles?=D
You were the one who looked out for fun but didnt look over your finance.=)
You didnt wanna let your friends down and you agreed on going out with your friends even your money was running low..just to make them happy..
Seriously, true friends will understand you when you're low in money..
And they will never force you to go out and have fun with them just because you are part of their "gang"..
Instead, they will lend you their helping hands.
from what I see, those friends of yours are clearly having fun and using money to overpower you.=)
to make you feel weak and left out..LEAVE them if i were you..
But as I sad earlier, you're too dumb..=D and you have high ego as you dont wanna back off away from them..
MAN, you are dumb.=D
Serves you right..Thank goodness I was smart enough not to lend you a single cent.=D
Of course..I am not as cheap as you and know how to balance my finance properly.=)
Wanna know something?=D
stop threatening me about your life..=D
Stop with your bullshits and nonsense..seriously.=D
they wont work on me..=)
Stop telling me that you feel that you're not gonna live long..
Why? are you trying to harass me? threaten me? *pukes*
with that face of yours, ewww..It aint gonna work on me.=D
You went for an operation for your heart over some minor problem.
And it was you who seeked for troubles..=D
You smoked too much..and there was an infection in your heart.
Your heart is fine now..PFFT..stop telling me lies..It was just a minor infection~
If you are not fine, the doctors would not let go off you from the ward and would keep you close under observations..
they cant be so unprofessional..PFFT..
clearly, you are lying..just to get sympathy from me..PFFT.
all in all, you're such a faker..
And i regret for knowing you ~ I regret..
I wished to never call you as my friend..
And to make you understand how much I hate you, I thought about barring your number from reaching my phone..=)
That shows how annoyed I am everytime I get your miserable messages.=D
I shall end it here..
Oh before that, seriously, I could actually sue you for what you have done..=)
I have some sort of phobia when I see you.=D
Wanna know what I feel like doing when I see your picture or your own self?=)
I feel like scrunching and distorting your face=)
I feel like throwing punches at you to break your ribs..=D
I feel like kicking you in the crotch..oh wait, I mentioned these earlier..
=D
It shows that how I am so into doing these on you.=)

Owh wait..you'd probably dont understand this..=D
because owh wait ;D Too deep? =D I should have known..=) maybe I shall translate it for you some other time?
Owh, I am so sorry..=D
I dont have the time now, I am busy chasing my own dreams..PFFT.
Last but not least, I despise you.=)
=D ahahaahaaaha XD

I shall end my post here..
much of a relief after telling the whole world through my blog the jerk I met..=D
Till then, stay tuned for more posts!..=D
sorry for vulgarity..;D
xoxo..=P
cheers!!!

"What have I done?"

~BACK~

2011-05-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

You said you loved me..
You're a liar..~

HELLO! and yes, I am back to blogging again..=P
it has been a month plus since I've updated my blog..XD
really sorry about that..=P
Have been busy working..going out with friends..lazing around.went on a holiday with my darlings..=)
was dealing with my education stuffs..had to settle my NS stuffs.
I was really busy, but now, I am FREE..=P
finally? XD ahahaha..XD It's great to be free..
Although, my heart feels emptiness.
Hurm~ But I guess, I'm gonna be fine..=D

The best memory in the month of April was being able to be in Genting with them..=)
Do check out my facebook for pictures..
Really awesome going on vacation with them..=D
We had our time together..Secrets were shared..Problems were solved..
Memories were created..Unforgettable memories with them..=)
I wished to do that more often with them..
But, unfortunately I cant..
Everyone has his/her dreams to pursue. And that includes me..
Things change. For a reason. For this case, this is a good change.
I am glad..

I've learnt something that hurt so much but I know, life goes on..
My friend..More like my sister to me, had to leave for Singapore to pursue her studies there..
Her parents are in Singapore. So, I guess, that was her best decision. To stay in Singapore with her family. Especially with her dad.
Well, I guess, most of you readers would guess who she is..
Of course..Sharyn Lim Pei Hwern.
The day after we came back from Genting she had to leave for Singapore that night.
So, we thought, why not, we meet her for the last time before sending her off to Singapore? Create more memories. Have some time together. because we dont know when is gonna be the next time seeing her again.
As far as I could remember, I didnt have the mood to work at all..I was all so down..
But, I couldnt show my sadness. I had to smile the whole day. That's my job. To smile to and serve customers.
I went Queensbay early that day. Around 11.My shift started at 12..Everything is still fresh in my mind.
Met up with Sharyn once I reached Queensbay~ As normal, we just chatted..=)
We had our talks..and definitely, I am gonna miss those.
Hon, Rachel and Eunice came later.
But, I had to go off to work already..~
Feeling so reluctant to go back to work, I forced myself to work..
I even asked my manager to arrange my break time that day so I could spend time with Sharyn..One last time before she heads to Singapore..
And, my manager was understanding enough, he did it for me..
I was fine at first.. Until I met H..~
Well..H started talking about random stuffs..and suddenly, I duno how we got into talking about my friends..
and that time, tears filler my eyes.. I couldnt control my tears..
They rolled down my cheeks..My clothes were wet..But, H consoled me. Well, it worked for a while..
Until I joined Sharyn and them for my late lunch at Manhattan Fish Market..
That time, I really couldnt control my tears..When I saw Sharyn, I felt sad..
She is one of my closest friends..Someone who is always there for me..Someone who knows a lot about me..Someone who accepts me for who I am..Someone who understands me..
Someone who cares so much about me..
I never thought I'd face days like this~
I always have the idea that no matter what, my friends would still be in Malaysia ONLY..
But, Singapore..Well, this is the first time.=)
SO yeah~ I cried during my break..and even after break..
That was the first time my colleagues saw me crying..And I thought I was okay~
I continued working..I told Sharyn to meet me before she leaves Qbay no matter what happens..~
But...She sent me a text message before she left..She told me that she saw us so busy at work..and that she didnt wanna disturb us..
I was on my way for my late dinner when I was reading that text..
And seriously, I cried after reading that..I tried to hide my tears..But, I guess I am just a weak girl afterall..=) Friends were asking and checking on me to make sure I am okay~..So yeah..I actually showed them that I am okay..=)
I didnt want anyone to be worried of me..
Well, that day, is a day I wont forget..
I've learnt that, goodbye is the hardest thing to do.
I wont know what's gonna happen next..
All I can do is pray for her success..and always hoping that she's fine no matter what.
I will cherish this friendship no matter what..
I love you, sharyn~ thanks for everything.you're a great mummy..oops..sister to me..=D
I will remember you always..Will keep you in my heart always..=')

Moving on..=D
I just resigned my job as a Service Crew in Sushi King on the 1st of May,2011..=P
yea~~ 2nd time..XD working there is really fun..=)
i was blessed with a lot of kind people..A lot of dramas too..=P
But I dont wish to enclose them now....=P P n C? XD
You can read up my note in facebook to know more..=D

Hurm~ And today.~=)
I've realised that it's better to know the truth than hiding yourself from it..=)
I hope you will stay positive no matter what..=)
Be strong no matter what~
I've been through this..And I know, how hurtful it can be, but sometimes, you've just gotta know the truth.
Even if it's the harsh way....=)
Time for you to move on and dont think so much..=)
If a person is not into you, let that person go.
It's not worth wasting time on things that will never be yours.
I admire how strong you were all this while~
Well, i'm glad to have you as a friend..=)
Dont wish to say a lot of things here..But, I just want you to be happy no matter what..=)
God bless you and me..=)

I shall end my post here for now..=)
back to facing the cruel and harsh reality..=)
I'm not ready for goodbyes..I am afraid..But, I guess, this dismissal is only for the best of us..
We'll be working on different dreams..And I hope, once we have achieved our dreams, we would still stay united. No matter what~.=)
Cheers!
I love you! =)

"Keeping you close to heart.=)"

~King Of Anything~

2011-03-30T17:48:00.004+08:00

The touch of your hands,
the warmth that you give,
unexplainable..=)

Hellow!!! XD
So sorry for not blogging quite a while..
As usual, been busy working until I hardly have time to update my blog..XD
Really lifeless larh~ XD

So..Right now, I am just gonna talk about my SPM results..
*jeng jeng jeng*! XDDD
Anyway~XD
I thank to God for giving me strength and faith in my weakest hours when I was facing a difficult stage of my life..=)
I'd like to express my gratitude to my parents, teachers, friends, managers and those who have been supporting me all this while by giving me hopes and endless encouragements regarding my SPM.=)
Without them, I wouldnt be at this position now..=D

I guess, from the above message, you can already guess my SPM results right? XD
Yeaaa..XD I got straight A's for my SPM..=)
6 A+, 2 A's, 1 A-..
Quite surprised..XD didnt really expect such results..XD
Straight A's! wee!!! =D unbelieveable ;D
All those hard work actually paid off.=)
Very happy with my results~ wee! XD
Oh well..XD

Those sacrifices I made for SPM..=)
Rawrrr..;D my korean guys' craze before SPM..XD I will never forget that..=)
You have exactly no idea what I did with my Korean guys' craze before SPM..XD
I grounded my own self from going online on weekdays..XD
I even had an agreement with Rachel about going online..XD
Silly things we do, but, a blessing in disguise at the end.=)

23rd April,2011..=)
A day i wont forget ;D
The day before, I worked from 12-10pm~
Honestly, I couldnt really concentrate when I was working..XD
My heart was pounding very fast when night came..~O.O
I was staring blankly in the air very frequent that day..XD
My colleagues sensed it and asked me not to worry so much..XD
They were so concerned about me..I was very touched=')
Abg Shuk asked me to text him once I get my results..XD
Abg Wan who was in Kedah that time doing his practikulum also wished me good luck and asked me to inform him my results as soon as I receive it..XD
Abg Ruslan kept reminding me about my SPM results,joked around with me and he kept telling me there's nothing to worry about..XD Just accept it once I get it..=P
My manager from Winter Warmers came all the way just to visit me in Sushi King to wish me good luck on getting my results..=)
H told me not to worry so much~ H sensed that I was very quiet when I was on my break with H..XD H said I'll get good results~..
F texted me at night and told me there's nothing to worry about..
And F had faith on me that I'll do well..=)
Seriously, I was beyond touched! =D

Surprisingly, I slept well during the night.=P I went to bed around 1am..XD
I was really tired that time..=P And I was sick too..=(
I was down with flu and cough..Sobs~~~
I woke up around 7.30am..=p [Because my friends wanted to go for dimsum together..;D] Saw a text from my manager, Mr Boey..XD So touched..=p
Met them at Maxim dim sum in Sungai Dua around 9am..=P
Abigail and Julia came together..=)
Alex,Rachel and Swee Hon came together..
ya lar ya lar..XD I came alone..HMPH..=P
wahahha...XD so, we just munched down on our food!
Awesome!.=D But, most of us didnt have appetite to eat..O.O?
We were worried and kept thinking about our results.
And we were afraid we would be late to get our results..XD
Because that time we were waiting for Huijie and Le Anne to come..
But, ended up, they came almost 10..We were about to head to school already..@_@
We ate quite little..[except Alex..=P]

Alex drove Rachel, Swee Hon and me to school~
We reached school around 10.10am..XD
And I was really nervous when I reached the gate of the school~
When we got down the car..XD I held Swee Hon and Rachel's hands so tight..XD
Pity them though..XD
Then, we headed to the gerbang ilmu..
And I was surprised..Why nobody has gotten their results? XD
But, I didnt bother much..I went around looking for friends and talked with them..XD
5 minutes later, they started announcing the students who scored straight A's..XD
Argh! XD I was really nervous that time..! XD
Again, Swee Hon was the victim.=P I held her hand so tightly..XD
And when my name was announced, my mind went blank..XD
I was all smiles when I was on the stage..O.O
I called my dad later..XD
And as usual..=X
As soon as I heard my dad's voice, tears of joy flowed down...XD
I was laughing and crying at the same time on the phone..@___@
Oh well..XD After that, as soon as I hung up on my dad's call, H called me..XD
So embarrassing.=X
I think, H heard me sobbing on the phone..XD
And H was quite shocked..I guess, H thought I didnt do well in my SPM..XD
H was working that time..rawr..=P
Hurm hurm..XD nothing else ad..XD After that, I texted a lot of people..
Called my physics tuition sir..XD he was in school..I forgot..=.=""Felt so guilty for calling him ..XD
He was really happy with my physic's grade.=D
I scored just as he expected..;D
texted my Add Math teacher after realising it was a school day that day..=P
She was happy with my results too..XD
My assistant manager also texted me concerning about my results..XD
Abg ruslan texted me to congratulate me..XD
I felt so touched that day~ haiy..XD
If I am not mistaken, 44 students in my school scored straight A's..
IF i am not mistaken larhh~~~

Went to Queensbay around 12 with Joshua, Swee Hon, Rachel and Yi Xin by bus..=P
Reached Queensbay and the first destination I went was Sushi King..O.O
Quite surprised, the whole outlet knew about my results already.XD
They congratulated me..So touching larh~ XD
Dined in Sushi King for our late lunch at 3 something.XD
Watched World's Invasion..boo..=.= I fell asleep in the cinema? XDDD
Walked around queens the whole day..and that's how I spent my day celebrating my results..XDDDD

Hurm..
Sigh..XD To be honest with you, I kinda miss those times I went crazy over korean guys before SPM..=)
Staying up late to watch their variety shows..SIGH..=(
Swee Hon,HuiJie and I are working now. Rachel just resigned..
Sharyn is in Singapore..Joshua is studying now..
I honestly miss those times we had in school!..=(
Those hang outs~ SIGH! I mish those larh~.=(

Hurm~ I think I have to sign out now already..~ =(
Will blog more next time alright? =D
Bye! Stay tuned!!!=D

"Who cares if you disagree? You're not me..;D"

~Butterflies~

2011-03-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

I cant keep my eyes off you..
That stare of yours..
That smile of yours..=D

Hello! XD
I know..it has been long since I last blogged..
I know I know..You peeps are probably bored of me saying sorry for not updating..XD
So for a change, I'd like to ask you readers on what I should do to forgive me this time..=D
I am sure, there wont be any readers for my blog already..
my blog is dead..T_T

Hurm...XD
So what's up with me now..=D
WORK..as usual..=D
6 days a week..=P
I cant believe that it's gonna be 3 weeks working there already..Time flies.wow..=PThink about it..It's worse than going to school~..=.=
I work full day now..EVERYDAY..i go to work in the morning and go back at night..
Well, I am not complaining..=D
afterall, I work just to gain experience..and some cash into my pocket..=P
Working is actually fun..Despite the long hours..~.~
There's no homework..I dont have to study anything..=P i just need to find ways to satisfy customers..that's all..=P
And seriously..XD Working in a food and beverage outlet is not easy..=D
Some customers are not understanding..=)
So yea..Just have to deal with it.=)
Working in this kind of outlet, you've gotta have a lot of patience dealing with this kind of people..=D

All in all..Working there is awesome.=)
because I have wonderful colleagues..=D
oh wait..they are AWESOME..=D haha..XD ALL of them..=)
They treat me as one of them..I dont feel apart..=D
When I first worked there, of course..I was bullied..
And now..I am loved by them..aww.=) hehe.XD
i love every single one of them..=D haha..XD

Hrm~ exactly next week from now, I am gonna receive my SPM results..XD
Honestly to say, I dont really feel nervous about it yet..XD
Maybe because I am tired of waiting..and then, when the time comes, I'll feel nothing already..XD
I am not sure about that..Afterall, it's still a week from now..=D
And a week is gonna be fast..
Anyway..XD I just hope work can distract me..=P
Working makes my time goes by faster..wee~~ XD Cant believe..It's one week from now only.=(
From 3 weeks..to one week..SIGH..I've been enjoying too much~ Rawr..XD

Anyway..XD I think that's all for now larh..=D
I wil blog more next time..
Once I am inspired..=D

Right now..Let's say our prayers for the people in Japan..
I hope they are fine..And May God bless them in every way..
I hope this will come to an end soon..
Let us all donate and give our kind hearts to show our support for them..
Let's live together in harmony and peace..=)

"You give me butterflies in tummy when I am with you.."

~You~

2011-03-14T21:48:00.001+08:00

I MISH YOU SO MUCH!..=(

~Chak~

2011-03-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

I miss those times.
I really do.

Hello! XD
yesh ;D I am finally back to blogging..=P
I know. It has been a while..forgive me please? XD
I have been really busy.
Ahh!=) too many exciting events came up..
So, I had to sacrifice my blog..
Aww? XD

Anyway..XD
So..What I've been doing? XD
Errr..XD I worked in Winter Warmers for 4 days..
And then, I resigned.=X oops? XD

haha..XD And then, I reapplied back in Sushi King.
Yada yada..XD bad choice I know.=P
bleh! XD
But, I've got a better offer in Sushi King..=)
And to be honest with you, I am so used to Sushi King that my heart stays there.
I know. I'm dumb..=.=
I should try in a new environment for at least a week or so instead of leaving after 4 days..
SIGH!..=( I feel so bad right now..=(

Anyway~~ xD
I am glad to be back in Sushi King..=D
I am able to communicate better with the staffs in Sushi King.=) [because I've known them longer. maybe I didnt get enough time to really communicate with the people in Winter Warmers yet. Or,maybe I didnt give them the chance to communicate with me=)]
It really feels like a family there.. regardless of races..=)
And no..I am not saying that the staffs in Winter Warmers are horrible..
I didnt mention that.=)
in fact, the staffs in Winter Warmers are really friendly too..=)
They are REALLY HELPFUL..like seriously. I owe you guys..=(
But I guess, the main reason that attracted me back to Sushi King is the environment.=)
I am so used to working fast. And serving customers in a busy situation..
while working in Winter Warmers is the opposite of working in Sushi King..Slow and steady..
There are times where Winter Warmers would be busy. But, Sushi King is all the time busy. I guess, I just like to keep myself occupied with work..=)
I hope, I will not regret my decision later on.=P
This is my final decision. And I am gonna stay there until I furthur my studies..=)

Hurm. So it has been 4 days I went back to Sushi King..
4 days went by really fast..O.O
I felt that 4 days in Sushi King is short. But, 4 days in Winter Warmers felt long..~ O.O
In fact, I worked longer hours in Sushi King than in Winter Warmers..O.O Weird aite? XDD

Oh well..XD enough talking about my work already..=P
Great experience working there.=)
Met wonderful staffs=') haha..XD

OH! Sharyn came back to Penang accidentally?=P
wahhaha! XD I see her almost everyday since she came back to Penang..XD
yeap yeap. Her return back to Penang was an accident. NO JOKE!..=D
Thanks to the customs..;D
great to have her back even for about a week..
Love her!!! =) And I missed her so much!..=')
she came back on the 24th of february..and going back on the 6th of march..=( hurm~
I dont want that day to come. SERIOUSLY..=( I dont want her back in Singapore..SIGH..=(

So..XD hrmm..XD what else to update? XD
i dont get inspired lately..
Not like last time..huhu..XD
Kinda busy lately..No time to blog..
So sorry if I abandon my blog..=)
And, I guess..There isnt anyone reading my blog too..T_T
my dead blog..=(
sigh~
Anyway..XD
Stay tuned for the next post alright?=)
Cheers and take care!
Much loves from, ME!=)

"If only you know what you mean to me..=)"

~Personality Test 2~

2011-02-23T15:49:00.002+08:00

I know~~ XD
I have been disappearing for quite a while =P
Anyway~ To bring up an update..So here's something..
I recently took a personality test..This time, it is more accurate..=)
I did this before..That was two years ago..
U can click on the link here to check out the difference of me two years ago and now..=)
CLICK HERE

So, this is me NOW.=)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

~Love's Way~

2011-02-09T18:52:00.002+08:00

I took the chance,
And let it slip away.=)

Hellow! I feel like my blog is dead..XD
I havent been updating about my stories lately..
Well, it's either because I am lazy or there's nothing to update about..=P
Or either..I am not inspired by anything..=P
Boo! XD I know..I just resigned my job as a service crew in Sushi King..
And having no time to update my blog is just an another lame excuse.=P

Hrm..
So, today, when I woke up, I saw this shocking news published in the newspaper..O.O
it was on front page..
I was quite surprised..
The news was about a 17 year old girl committing suicide in school.
To read more about it ,
CLICK HERE

Erm..Honestly..
I disagree about suicide being the easiest way out from troubles/problems..=)
Committing suicide is a silly act..

I mean. Can you imagine, how would your parents feel after knowing that you would kill yourself because you lose your way in your life?
Can you imagine how depressed they would feel?
Think about the hardships they have gone through to give you the best in your life.
Is it worth it to risk away all the hardships and give up in your life because of some problems?
You dont run away from troubles when you commit suicide.
Seriously.
The problem would still be there. Just that, you wont be able to feel the pain..

Can you imagine how your friends would feel if they were to find out about your suicide?
Can you imagine how disappointed they would be?
Suicide is something not to be proud of.
But, it's just a shameful act that requires nobody's sympathy.
I am not being harsh or what so ever.
But, I guess..
Sometimes, people commit suicide because of lack of attention and love.
Or either, they are brought up in not a very conducive environment.
Or, maybe, parents often show bad sides of them.=)

Hurm.And love can really make someone loses his/her mind..
Makes someone goes out of control of her/himself.=)
Sometimes.it's best not to give your all in love matters.[Make your life balanced.=)]
In the end, you'll get hurt. Just be moderate about that matter.
What matter most in life is YOURSELF..
YOU are the one who determines your future..your happiness..your dreams..
YOU come first before love.

YOU are the director in your life.=)

I think it's kinda true..=) Unless, your other half is someone who treats you well..=D
But, nobody is perfect..;D

Everyone has their hard times in love matters.
I did. and I've gone though that harsh period bravely.
I didnt take the easy way out.
Of course. There were heartaches and tears.
I believe that eventhough I might not have a special one by my side, I still have a very blissful life..
I am surrounded by awesome people..God gave me a chance to know these people..=) And that was what that kept me going..=)
But, suicide was something not in my list. I never thought of death.
Death is something nobody can plan. I leave my death to God.
Hence, I'll just be happy with what I have right now..=)

All in all, I just want you readers to know,
no matter how harsh life can be, endure the pain..
God is secretly testing you..
And, a harsh period wont last long..seriously.
There's a blessing behind it.=)
There are more happy memories than sad memories in life..
SERIOUSLY..=)
God is not evil. God is kind..=)
Dont ever take the easy way out.. Toughen your heart..And brace yourself to overcome challeges that are blocking your way.=)

Lastly, just wanna record my deepest condolences to the family of Sally Lee Qian Chun..
And may her soul rest in peace..

Till then, I am signing off for now.
Take care. And take a good note of my advice.=)
Cheers! And have a happy journey ahead.=D

Kenapa ku terasa sepi?Tanpa mesejmu. Ku terasa amat sepi. Apabila Jenny tidak tahu di mana abang..Apabila Jenny tidak tahu apa yang abang sedang buat, Jenny mempunyai satu perasaan yang pelik. Jenny menunggu mesej abang sepanjang hari. Kenapa ye? Adakah ini disebabkan Jenny terlalu dekat dengan abang? Hrm..Apa-apa pun, Jenny harapkan abang sentiasa dalam keadaan yang terbaik.=)

"Your 6th =("

~Depressed~

2011-02-07T00:29:00.001+08:00

people call me emo..
really?

I dunno..
I am a heartbreaker..;D
a heartbreaker for good reasons..SIGH..

~There's more?~

2011-02-06T11:38:00.004+08:00

Oh well..
what's in me?=.=
Some kind of magnet?That attract people.
There's more coming? i am tired..seriously tired..T_T

This should be fun..;D
I love the way it is going now..;D

"Xiang nian ni.."

~The End~

2011-02-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

Everytime I look at you..
Everytime I talk to you.
I smile..and my heart skip a beat..=D

Hello! XD
finally, i have the time to REALLY update my blog..
Hurm..
I was really busy working..And, when I had the time to relax, I would go online to chat..
But, now..XD I am free..=D I can go online anytime..Free as a bird..=P
Most of my friends are working now..or either, studying..and..
i am not doing anything..i gotta find a new job soon..=.=""

Anyway..XD I would like to apologise if my previous posts were really emo..=P
Yesh..XD I was thinking too much..XD
and I was really in deep sh*t ..XD But, I guess everything is okay now?=)
I hope I can handle it well by myself..I'd be careful..XD

Hurm..So yeah..XD
I resigned my job as a service crew at sushi king..=P
last day was on the 31st of january..
I duno what i should feel..
Somehow..I feel happy..and sad at the same time..
Happy because, I can relax myself after stressing out myself so much after SPM..=P
and also, happy because I dont have to stress out because of a certain someone..=P
Hurm..And I'm sad to leave those people behind..
Those awesome people behind..Sigh..
My awesome manager..My awesome assistant manager..My awesome kaiten..My awesome colleagues ..Hurm..but,it's best for me to leave also..=(

Anyway..XD the reasons I leave..=P
I cant work during Chinese New Year because I would be really busy.
I am gonna be really busy too after CNY.Need to search for colleges and what course to take up..
I leave because..there's a leech there..=P Leech~ XD

Hurm..I'm gonna miss them a lot..
I cant believe that it has been one month I worked there..Time does fly..=(
It feels like..I just got to know the people there..
And now, I just left..
Sigh..Maybe, I would be considering working there again..=P
If, the leech is not there..;D

It's actually quite fun working in Sushi King..=)
You are ALWAYS occupied..
Seriously..No time to relax..=)
And, it makes me fill up my time efficiently.=)
It's fun..communicating with people..
It's fun because working in a food outlet I get to meet all sorts of people..
From friendly, to grumpy ones..=P
And, I could actually train myself to be more patient..And not to throw tantrum in front of customers..
It's actually fun working there because I am now more brave to face different people in the world..
great experience working there..=)
I learnt from the mistakes I made there..And, those mistakes would be my life lessons in the future..=D

Although the job I held as a service crew was stressful..
all in all, I had fun working..
I met awesome people there..People who are there for me everytime I feel tired and stressed out..
People who are always able to put a smile on my face when my mood turns bad..
People who undestand how I'd feel dealing with unreasonable people..=P

And now I know..
How stressful it is for a waiter/waitress to serve customers.=P
So to my readers, do be considerate if you see those waiters and waitresses busy doing their work..=)
Give them some time..They have their hard time juggling so many tasks at the same time..=)
And, if you see them busy, and you need them to serve you, dont be rude to them too..=D
Afterall, waiters and waitresses are humans like you too..
They have feelings too..=D

Hurm..I miss working there..
And it has only been one day since I resigned..
I feel so empty..
SIGH..I feel useless.=.=

Oh yea..So nice of our assistant manager [kak linda] to actually treat me and rachel KFC on our last day of working..=')
So touched..Never knew I would be treated that well too..SIGH..
I feel heavy hearted to leave..But, this is the best choice for me and the others.=)

Gonna miss you guys..A lot..
Abg2, kak2 that helped me a lot..
Thanks a lot to all of you..
For giving me a chance to improve and learn..=)

Signing off,
Medium-feeling girl..=P

Abg Hasimi..=D

"I'd be fine..=)"

~;D~

2011-01-31T01:58:00.001+08:00

impossible=P

2011-01-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

To fight..

Or..

to lose..

~Arraseo~

2011-01-26T08:59:00.002+08:00

Arraseo.
I understand..=)

The way I feel now is different..
Thanks to Rachel.
I am finally back to my senses..
Yesh..I admit.
I was stupid, dumb..
I could not do it alone..
I did tell myself to get back to my senses..
But, i lost my way in the middle..
I need someone to slap me in the face telling me that I was wrong.
and I was an assh*le.
Eh wait..XD I proudly present myself with 2 titles.
Bitch..and Whore..=D
I lost my mind like..seriously.
I really do feel disappointed of myself.
At first, I was disappointed..Then, I duno..what has gotten into my mind..
Until I fell for that trap..I didnt want anything to happen at all..
I really dont know..=.=
There's something about this person that I got so attracted.
BLAH..=.=

It was my fault for giving in.
It was my fault for making someone to misunderstood me..
It was my fault that, i broke someone's feelings.
I told you..
I am a bitch..and a whore..=)
Call me emo or what.
But, I really hate myself now.
I'd never look back at what happened for the last 3 days..
It all happened because of my stupidity..
Isnt it enough that I have caring friends around me?
See..I am making the same mistake again..
I am taking things for granted..
I hate myself..
Call me emo lar..I dont mind..But, I am really disappointed of myself..
I cant cry over this. But, I can only laugh at myself..
For such stupidity..I should laugh at myself at such idiotic action..
And yesh, I can also admit that..
I am actually playing around..
I told you..I am a bitch..Boohoo..=.=

I guess, something had really bewitched my mind..and heart..
And, I will not fall for the same trick again..=)
And, I am not emo. I am stating what I've been feeling.

I tried my best to avoid everything..
But, I guess, my plan didnt work this time?
Maybe, because I havent been using this technique for quite some time already..
And maybe, I have lost my ability in making that technique succeed? =P
Yesh..XD I am crapping..XD

You know what..
I shall take this as a lesson.
A lesson that I learnt by hard.
=.=
I shall toughen my heart and mind.=.=
I have such soft heart..fck it..lol..XD
and yesh..I know..I've been so vulgar in this post..
But, really..I am disappointed of myself.
I cant even forgive myself..SIGH..T_T

And to YOU..=D
thanks for understanding..=)

Anyway..=D
XD
on a brighter note..=P
I cant wait to have my SHINee calendar..XD
Please pray hard I get straight A's for SPM..=P
So i can gt it from caveboy[arthur]
owh wait..XD caveGIRL ..=D XDD

"His whisper is the lucifer.."

~Wae?~

2011-01-25T19:32:00.001+08:00

Why does the term "races" exist in this world?
Isnt it nice if all of us are the same?
isnt it nice if we only have one race shared among us?
sigh!..T_T

~Forever or Never~

2011-01-25T15:24:00.002+08:00

It's either forever.
Or.. Never..
But, I chose never.

I like everything that you do.
But, it's something we will NEVER achieve..

I'll miss you.
Call me emo or what so ever.
But, I really will..

Tiny crush..=)

"It's a never..."

~Explanation?~

2011-01-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

I dont understand.

Hurm.

~Love your enemies~

2011-01-25T01:36:00.002+08:00

~Those who hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you, unless you hold on to the pain resentment~

SO TRUE..=)

~Bitch~

2011-01-25T00:28:00.003+08:00

I.MUST.NOT.FALL.

Ahh! I'm such a bitch~
BLAH!..=.=

~Crush~

2011-01-24T23:57:00.004+08:00

Ottoke?
How?
What should I do?
SIGH...

What have I gotten myself into?
I seriously dont know.
To be honest with you.
Maybe, I do..Just a lil.
But, I know. THIS ISNT RIGHT.
this is not what I want.

I am so confused now.
Why are you treating me so well?
I dont get it.
What's nice in me?

I love my clumsy chicken..=)

Somehow, it gives me a chill.
A sense of security.

"It'll be over soon"

~Dang~

2011-01-24T11:15:00.001+08:00

WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO?

I've been asking myself that over and over again..
And I think, I've gotten myself into more troubles..SIGH.
This will end. I know it will.=)

~Gratitude~

2011-01-24T00:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for caring..=)
I appreciate it..
Thanks for everything..=)
You are awesome.
Thank you.

~Apology~

2011-01-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

Losing my mind..
Because of you..~

Hey-low~..=D
So so sorry for abandoning my blog..=P
i guess it has been almost a month since I last updated..XD
I am really sorry.
I've been really busy..=(

As some of you may know, I'm working now..=D
At sushi king..Queensbay..=D
What can I say about working there?
Well..Stressful..=) Seriously stressful.
But, at the same time, some seniors there really care about you..
And sometimes, the seniors bully you and look down on you..True fact..
I guess, this happens everywhere larh..Oh well..
Gotta endure right? Nothing's easy in this world..=)
I'll update more about my work next time alright?=D
I have so lil time to update my blog..
Because currently, I'm watching "My Girlfriend is a Gumiho"..
Quite a nice drama..=D
Ya ya..It's korean btw..=P
I'll update about that drama too..=)
Btw, I havent post anything up on Shanghai trip too~ Oh well..
I'll try my best to update everything alright?=P
Hmm..=D

Btw, a month ago, I finished watching "Pasta"..
Not bad..=D But, I kinda prefer "my girlfriend is a gumiho" over it..=P
Pasta is also a kind of love drama..=D
I loved it too..=) I loved the love scenes..
ahhh! XD
Too much to describe about that drama actually..=)
Anyway..Gotta go now..=P
haha..XD
Work's today at 1 to 10pm~..hrm..=((
Till then..=D

"Mianhae"

~New Year~

2010-12-31T10:52:00.002+08:00

I'm so in love with my ringtone right now..=P
Suits any incoming calls..XD
"Hello"~

So yeah.=P
Since most of them are reminiscing about their life in 2010..
So I would like to give it a shot too..=P

This year, hurm..Nothing special I guess.
I had a lot of fun with my friends and family..=)
Erm..I cant really pick out the event that is most memorable to me..~=P
Because every event seems to be special and memorable to me..=)
Outings in Queensbay..Went to China with my beloved family members..Prefects' camp..Prefects' dinner..Chinese New Year..Hiking outings..=P The period where Rachel and I got crazy over Super Junior..[we even made a deal not to go online to stop ourselves from going watching their videos before SPM-failed] lalalala..XD My birthday celebration~ Their birthday celebrations..=)
And a lot more..=P It would be meaningless if I were to just type out everything on this blog right?=) Some memories are meant to be kept in the heart and mind..[aisehhh..XD]
Ahh..I'm gonna miss them.=')
I love those moments..=)
Yea..XD They are not in order..=P

Now, I still cant believe that 2010 is ending..
Today is the last day of 2010..O.O
It feels like my life has just begun for 2010..And now, it's ending..O.O
Time flies by fast..
I cant accept that 2011 is gonna start tomorrow..=(

What I can say about this year?
Hectic..=P
Before SPM and even after SPM..=P
Before SPM, life was really crazy for me..
I was so darn stressed..=.=""
I seriously had no life before SPM..
Ahh! XD I spent most of time in school..And tuition classes..O.O
Imagine having tuition classes in a row..~ XD
From Wednesday to Saturday..4 days in a row..O.O
And I had to study for exams and SPM..=.=""
No time to completely relax the whole day~..sigh..=(
Seriously,it's crazy!..=P
I would not have made it through without constant support and love from friends and family..=)
Hurm..
After SPM? XD Yea~ I've been really busy~ As you can see what I have written in the previous post..=P

There were laughters...There were tears..
There were ups..There were downs this year..=)
All of these, I shared those with my friends too~..=)
Hurm~~

What I've learnt this year?
Well..XD Basically.. nothing much of a difference like last year..=P
~I've learnt that crying doesnt mean you're weak, but each time you cry, u become stronger..=) Which is kinda true according to what I've seen and experienced..=P
~I've learnt that faith is important in everything you do.
~I've learnt that no matter how stressed out you are, you still look up to God for assistance and strength.
~I've learnt that, friends are easy to made but once you break their trusts on you, it's impossible to gain them back..[doesnt imply on me kay.=P]
~I've learnt that sometimes, when you care for someone too much, you're the one who is hurt later on.hurm~
~I've learnt that no matter how busy you are, it's best to laugh at least once a day..=P
~I've learnt that time is too short to be wasted..=P

I think there are more than these..But, I just cant think anymore..XD
Anyway..My new year's resolution..O.O
Next year..=P
~I'm gonna hunt for the college I wanna study in
~I'm gonna work hard for the moneyh, babeyh~ XD
~I'm gonna continue karate[yeah.i've become less fit now..=(]
~I'm gonna hang out more with my friends once I get my car.=P
~I'm going to gym to work out..=P [yesh..I'm serious if I have time..XD]
~I'm gonna try not to stress myself out too much already..[pity my brain and body..=.="]
~I'm gonna spend more time with my family members..~=P
~I'm gonna lose weight..=P yeshhhh..hmph,XD
~I'm gonna be happier than ever..XD

Crap..XD
I'm running out of ideas..~lalala..XD
But, I guess, this post looks great already..=P
Anyway~ I would like to wish everyone who is reading my blog now, a very happy new year!..=)
Hope you have a blessed one coming your way!..=D

Here's a video to end my post..;D
Please dont go away~
Yeah..I wished my friends wont go away too..=P
Till the next post, anyong!..=)

"I love chicken too, my clumsy chicken..=P"

~C0nFuS3d~

2010-12-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

Clumsy chicken..
Leafy lettuce..
xx..=D

ya ya..XD
I know my title is so lala-ish..
And I'm really really sorry for not updating my blog..XD
I have been really busy after I came back from holiday..@__@
Christmas party..
Christmas open house..
Sleepover..
Job hunting..
Yesh..;D I'm a busy woman..XD

Hurm..Anyway, I created a new blog..=P
Baby Lettuce/Clumsy Chicken
Yesh..XD that blog is all about my rants on KPOP ONLY..=P [and some other stuffs=P]
Mostly all rants larh..I dont wanna pollute this blog with my meaningless rants.
I created one to channel my useless thoughts there..=D
So, if you're not interested, dont even bother looking at that blog..XD
And even if you wanna take a look, please dont laugh at me..T___T
I'm so embarrassed..=(

Why baby lettuce/clumsy chicken? XD
haha..XD my love of course..=P
eeek..XD

anyway..XD
I'm really confused now..=(
Recently, I just went for an interview in Padini.
The chances of me getting a job in Padini is quite high..
The lady seems to be interested in me ..=)
And the pay..so-so lar..
What can you expect when you're a part-timer right?
Not gonna reveal how much is the pay here..=)
P & C..
But, my working hour is not definate.
It can be in the morning or in the afternoon..Sometimes 4 hours, sometimes 8 hours..
The position I applied for is Sales Assistant..
I'm kinda new in this kind of thing..
Sales.O.O I'm from science stream..
I dont know anything about sales..XD
And, the lady decided to put me in kids' department..
KIDS..O.O
But, I dont really mind larh..
I guess, kids' department is easier to handle because parents are easily convinced I guess?=)
And the way kids dress up is quite simple I would say..
If I were to get the other departments, I guess I will have difficulties in promoting clothes..
especially to women.=P Women are fussy when it comes to shopping for clothes..XD
So, I guess, I should take this opportunity lar..
Mandarin is the only obstacle..I can understand and speak a lil only..XD
But, the lady said I might be working until February only..[or maybe until April if there are still vacancies]
But, I guess it's OK..
I'm afraid I will get NS..
And, the purpose of working? XD
Money for concerts..yay! XDD
2 months' salary is enough for me to go for those concerts..=P

Going to hunt for more jobs tomorrow..=D
And see which pay is better.=)
Wish me good luck!.=D

"Baby lettuce, love you!=D"

~Christmas!~

2010-12-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
=D

I miss you..
When are we gonna meet again?=(

"Baby, what are you doing now..?hurm..=/"

~23/12/2010~

2010-12-23T16:28:00.003+08:00

23rd December,2010.=)
Sudah satu tahun.
So cepat ah? XD

Yeah...You might be wondering, what's so significant about 23rd December?
Hurm...
Exactly one year ago, I was such a big failure..=)
I guess this is the first time I'm confessing about my failure to be a better person to someone.=)
Oh well..=P
I'm okay with it already lar..XD
In fact, I'm more than fine about it already.=P
I look at that matter as a source of motivation...a lesson..
To treat the people around me in a better way..=)
So, I'm quite thankful that it happened..
Although, there's a sense of regret of what I've done..=P
It has taught me to be a better person..
To be a less selfish person.
To always give in when there's a need to..
To always appreciate the one who is always there for me..
And not to take things for granted..=)
Hurm..I do realise that I've changed a lot this year..
Not much of a difference..But, there is..=)
I've become the more cheerful type..Able to accept the people around me.
Able to share more..=)
Able to appreciate more..=)
[Crying is normal lar..aiyo..XD but, each tear makes me a stronger person..=P]
I cried over my mistakes..I know I cant undo them..
Now that I finally come back to my senses, I realised that mistakes build a stronger personality in me.=)
There's no success when there are no failures..=P

I just cant believe it has been a year already..O.O
It's just too fast..O.O
I guess, 2010 has been a busy year for me until I find that time passes by really fast..=)

And to you, if you're reading this..I know there's a minimal chance of you reading this..
But, oh well.XD I'm just expressing myself..=)
Hurm..I hope you're fine..=)
I hope you're happy with your current life now..=D
Thanks for everything..
Seriously. I dont know what I can do to repay you for everything that you've done for me..=)
You were the one who made me realise things I didnt know about this world..=)
I know..You'll find this kinda cranky..yada yada..=P
And if you think that I'm afraid to talk to you or afraid to tell you this, I guess you are wrong.=P
The truth is, I still cant forgive myself for my mistakes.
I cant forget the mistakes I've made.
There's a sense of guilt everytime I talk to you.
So I guess, this is the best way for me to express myself..
Hurm..It takes time..I keep telling myself that..=)
Just give me some time to adapt..I know..It has been so long..But, relax larh.=P
Dont need to hurry larh..XD

I'm sorry..=)

I'm sorry for writing this post..
I'm sorry for creating so much troubles to you..
I'm sorry for everything..=)
I hope things will go back to normal...Friend..=)
Boohoo..XD lame post lar..=p

It's never easy to forget..=) but it's easy to forgive..Cheers...

"Haengbok"

~Shake It up~

2010-12-23T15:44:00.003+08:00

Shake it up!.
=P

Hello! yeap~
I'm back blogging again..XD
The truth is...
after i'm back from holiday, i was really lazy to blog..=P
i was really tired..
what? XD u cant blame me..=P
I went for holiday 4 days after my last paper ended..=P
All i wanted was more sleep and fun..XD
But, going for a holiday was more tiring than I expected..O.O
Imagine waking up around 6.30 in the morning, travel for the whole day..And then, go to bed at 12am..O.O
Holiday was fine..I'll update next time alright?=P

Hurm~ This post is just gonna be random dom dom dom..=P
So after SPM, i hung out with my friends..
Awesome!!XD
on the 8th of December, [my last paper which was bio], was freedom day..=P
After that paper, had a short meeting with the prom committees.. [ended up, I didnt make it for prom..boohoo..=(]
After the meeting, went back and got myself ready to go bowling with my friends in sunshine..=P
Awesomeness ! XD Bowling was awesome..
Lotsa fun and laughters..=)
Never had so much fun days before SPM..=P
They made my day.=P
After bowling, we came up with a sudden plan..=P
Sharyn, Rachel, Joshua and I planned to have dinner at Queens..
Rachel was the one driving us there..=P so cute right?? XDD
Her driving is getting better..*applause*.=P
Better than me..XD We got our driving licenses on the same day.
Yet, she's better than me already..=P [ya lar ya lar..XD I'm complimenting you..=P]
We walked around queens just to decide on what to eat for dinner..=P

And we had little money left..XD

Ended up, we decided to dine in dave's deli..=P
coincidentally, I met my dear there..=)
Talked..gossiped like nobody's business.
Then dear had to go..=(
The rest of us went to buy green tea ice cream.=P
mine was free..;D i didnt have much money left lar..XD
Pity me..But, thanks to Joshua, he gave me his free icecream..awww..XDD
Oh well..Nothing much happened later on..Headed home and online until..I cant remember until what time..XD

The next day..Got up early..=P
Was heading to school to return books..=P
Had breakfast with my dad..Saw Sim Sim dear dear..=D
Nothing much happened in school..All I could remember is it took me quite some time to return the books..XD
And there were some mistakes about my books and others..@__@
Nothing about that..Headed of to queens after returning books..XD
with them again, of course..=D oh..and Eunice too..=P
Racheng drove us there, again..=P
Hurm~ We reached queens way to early..XD
Queens opens at 10.30am everyday..
We got there around 10am..=P
So..In order to waste our time, we went to coffee bean and ordered beverages..XD
There goes our money..T___T
Hurm..Didnt do anything much in queens..XD
Watched narnia..My rating? Erm..7/10 only..=P
It was so-so only..Not worth watching that show in 3D..=(
I wasted my money for 3D..
Sigh...saw many Form 5-ers in queens that day..=P
Went skating with my friends..booo..XD
So embarrassing..XD Sonia and Abi saw me falling down so many times.
I even knocked my head once.
bluekssss..XD
I'll never go skating EVER AGAIN..=P
I'm gonna embarrass myself only.XD
Nevermind..I'll practice with someone else first..Until I am better already, I'll go back to queens to skate.=P
Hrmm..XD Nothing much..I was quite moody that day after the skating.
Nah..It wasnt because of the embarrassment after skating..XD
but, i was actually tired.=P and I was quite sad that we wont be able to spend so much time together like we used to already.=(
Swee Hon came after her accounts papers..=P hrm..XD seriously, nothing much happened after that.
We talked a lot.=P And we disturbed "some people"..XD
Dinner was at nando's..=P we skipped lunch because we didnt have much money..[ish ish.XD always money crisis] and we ate a lot of junks in queens..XD so we werent that hungry..=P
Hurm.Nothing much ad..XD

Haiy..XD Somehow, thinking back that day brings a very moody feeling to me.=(
Sharyn was leaving for singapore soon..
And me leaving for china soon..I wont be able to meet them as frequent as I used to already..=(
Now, I'm back from China.I know that most of my friends are busy with christmas preparation..hurm..
I dont blame anyone..=)
Just that, there's something I've learnt.

To appreciate everything you have before it's gone right in front of your eyes.=)

Every single moment with y'all is special to me..=D

That's all for now I guess.=P
Stay tuned alright? XD

Anyong..=)

"I dont wanna hear it no more..=P"

~Anyong!~

2010-12-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

Anyong!![Goodbye]
This blog will be dead for more than 8 days.=D
Do miss me kay?;D
I'll tell you guys where will I be going these 8 days..=P
Take care..
and miss me..XDD

~Ass-Pee-Am~

2010-12-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

You're the only one..
No doubt..=D

Hello! XD
Yesh~ I know..It has been almost 3 weeks since I last updated my blog.
But I guess, not many read my blog..=( I'm sure there's none..=P
anyway..XD sorry for the late post.=P after SPM, I've gotten really busy..~ XD
I've been out most of the time after SPM..=P I was hardly at home..
I was at home to sleep only..=p
So..
I guess you readers must be wondering how did my SPM go? So here you go..~ Some pictures..To explain to you guys..;D

Stacks of books..=P
this was before SPM..
I hated that sight actually..XD I felt like throwing all the books before SPM..
So messy..=.=
I didnt even wanna take any books from those stacks..
The stacks looked like they were about to fall..XD

SPM was okay~
Just okay lar..=P
All the subjects were okay~
I was so worried the day before BM..I couldnt sleep well..[Well..I guess during SPM I didnt sleep well] yeah.XD cause BM was the first paper..=P
And I kept telling myself..Once SPM starts, everything is gonna pass by fast.
Which is not so true in my case..XD
I find the time was moving real slow during SPM..Maybe because I was counting the days left till it ends..=P
Maybe that's the reason I felt the time was crawling..XD
It felt really long seriously..O.O
But second week was fast..
But seriously..I thank to God for giving me the strength to push me forward.=)
And especially in my weakest hours..~
And thanks to those prayers from people around me too~ I really appreciate the prayers..=) And those wishes too..=)
I hope I wont disappoint you guys..;D

Anyway..4 Physics, I lost 5 marks for no reason~
yesh~ blame me for being so blind.
I didnt know there were still questions behind..
boom..=.=" lost 5 marks..~and they were free marks..blahh!..=((
And..I am actually kinda worried of my bio..
Since I am never that good in that subject.=P
But, right now..I just hope for the best..;D

And yeah..
I got sick on the 2nd week of SPM..=P
Nothing biggy actually..
I was dead worried..=.=
I was down with sore throat..Yeah~ a day before Physics papers..grhh~..=(
It was nothing much~ But I was really worried that my throat would really hurt during Physics papers..
But, thank goodness it didnt..=D

So yeah..XD this was how the table looked like when there was only down to one subject.=P
Now, it's cleared!! No files..No papers...wee!!XD
Ahh! XD I'm feeling so lazy to update my blog now..
Hmm~ I guess that's all for now~ I feel like watching videos..=P sorry~ XD
and yeah..=.=
how lucky I was? I had so many kisses from the mosquitos..;D
red huge spots..thank you..=.=
so itchy~ It was so difficult for me to concentrate in exam hall..
grhh~ XD

Till then, anyong! XD

"Ottoke?=("

~=D~

2010-11-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

FULL FORCE~
MAXIMUM ACCELERATION~..
LAST PUSH!..
I CAN DO IT..~

~Empty~

2010-11-20T00:42:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep!..=(
I need barbiturates..XD

~Almost There~

2010-11-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

I feel so restless nowadays.
Not enough sleep..
Mood has been up and down..blame *period*..[it gave me a terrible stomach cramp the other day..]
until I couldnt even study..=.="
But now, it's better..=D
I was dead worried because I thought it would really affect my mood and my confidence..
But thank goodness, the pain went away after the first day..=D
yeah~ I noe this is the first time I'm writing about my *period*..XD
But, since this is like an online diary to me, it's okay for me to express what I felt.=D
And seriously, this month's *period* was the worst so far..~.~
It was really painful until I could not walk, stand, eat, study,etc etc..EXCEPT..;D Sleep~ XD

Oh yeah~..;D
hurm~ Since I know that there'll be ladies out there reading my blog,
I would like to ask, is there any better solution to cure period pains besides medication?o.O
I dont want to depend on pain killers..In fact, I dont take them when I have period pains..;D I'll just wait and wait until the pain subsides..
SO, if you ladies out there have any secret remedies to share, please leave at the chatbox right next to my blog alright?
Thanks a lot..=D
And you know..
Period doesnt have to be that bad afterall..=P

So yeah..SPM is about 4 days away from now..=D
I'm writing this to tell u peeps that I'm still okay and still alive..=P
although I really feel restless nowadays..And unprepared all of a sudden..XD
It's okay..;D
I'll just endure these tired moments of my life..
I cant wait to get over with SPM..
It's gonna be soon~ 20 days till it officially ends..
yesh! XD
I seek for your help, God..
Strengthen me in my weakest hours..

till then, i'll see you guys!
take care..;D

"Mr. M..=( I mish you..Wait for me alright? =D"

~Love apples~

2010-11-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

The French once called tomatoes as pammez d'amour.. which means love apples..;D

I love tomatoes..;D

I AM REALLY HAPPY NOW..=D
"That" really brighten up my day.
Thank you =')
Cant stop myself from smiling~wee!!
XD

"3 words, 8 letters, one meaning..I love you..;D"

~Soon~

2010-11-13T00:29:00.001+08:00

things i really wanna avoid NOW..=.=

~Blank~

2010-11-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

i wanna be ur jojo
I wanna be ur juliette..=D

~Sometimes~

2010-11-08T01:46:00.002+08:00

Only one for me

Sometimes, i try to deny..
but it hurts seriously..
No matter how hard i try, it comes back to where I started..
Yes..I miss you..Not a lil..But a lot.
I hate the fact that I have to deny..telling everyone that there's nothing now~
Damn this mood swing..=(
I hate the fact that you look so good
I hate the fact that I am so silly..
I hate the fact that when I'm weak, it's hard to get up..

YESH..I cant wait till this ends..

~Hoot Hoot Hoot~

2010-11-07T11:24:00.001+08:00

Shoot shoot shoot.

my stupid ego..=D

~Spill~

2010-11-04T18:27:00.003+08:00

you KNOW what?
I'm so disgusted..=.="

DISGUSTED by everything ABOUT YOU..=.="

I know what you'll say..F*** off..this isnt ur life..
blah!..=.="
I HAVE THE EFF-ING RIGHT TO JUDGE ON WHAT I SEE OR FEEL..
I just cant stand it anymore...
fuhh~
I HATE your childish acts and games..
I FREAKING HATE THEM..=.="
WHY? HUNGER FOR FREAKING ATTENTION FROM PEOPLE AROUND YOU?
WHY? THAT YOU'RE STILL A KID?
WHO WOULD BELIEVE YOU?
Oh, c'mon! Manage your own freaking life!!!..=.="
I HATE IT WHEN YOU BRING SMALL MATTER UP FOR A FIGHT..
eff..=D
YOU KNOW WHAT?
EFF-YOU-CEE-KAY!
Blah~ I dont care if i'm being so vulgar on my blog..
Fuhh!

I'm out..
Fuhh~

~O_O~

2010-11-04T11:28:00.001+08:00

HE'S NOT GHEY..O.O

HE'S CUTE ;D

JEALOUS..=P

~modnar~

2010-11-04T00:06:00.002+08:00

Fuhh..=.=" temptations..~

Lalala..Random dom dom..XD

Me: You know what? I didnt know my silver paint marker was leaking..I kept shaking it and I didnt realise there were droplets coming out..Ended up, my hands, legs and hair were stained with the silver droplets..I feel so SHINee..;D

Racheng: LOL..XD 6th member of SHINee..Stage name: Lion.

ahh~ isnt in nice if I'm actually one of the members? I dont wish much..=P I dont mind becoming their mic holder anyway..XD my voice isnt good to deserve a spot to sing..=P

In tuition..
Angelyn : ehh! XD got silver hair!
Me: huh? XD help me get it off..
Some other people in the tuition : apa ini? XD monkeys ah? collecting kutus..XD

Laughters are needed to reduce stress..
3 more weeks! Cant wait for total freedom!..=D

~Hello Hello~

2010-11-03T11:46:00.002+08:00

A-yo~~

Cham shi goodbye..;D
Needa date my sejarah books~ ..
wuuu~ noonmul~..T_T

bogo nommu shipeo~..=(

"It means I miss you..=("

~Pray~

2010-10-24T00:19:00.004+08:00

I close my eyes,
And I drift away in your warm and tender care..

♥_♥

Hello~ XD
LOL at the heart-shaped eyes emoticon~ XD
It was just a random thing~ was trying it out to see how does it look like..=P
Kinda cute anyway.XD

Argh~ These few days..I've been thinking about cars.
Sporty cars.=X
Yesh..XD I have a huge obsession over sporty cars..=P
I am a weird girl..I wouldnt consider myself as a girl when it comes to cars.=(
Yesh..XD I love to play all those car-racing games.=P
Arcade..Computer games..
But, I am not an expert lar..=X
I'm actually quite lame when I play those games..XD
And of course, I'm one terrible driver on the road in REALITY..=D

*Points above*
I've been thinking of owning a Nissan 350z..
The model is quite old..But, I love the design.. The lights are just so...pretty? XD
Two-seaters car..Awesome!!! XD
Simply sporty~~ I love it so much..=(
And, it can speed up really fast!..=D
Awesome car..~
For now, it costs about RM385,876..XD
But, where do I get all the money to buy this car?=(
How I knew this car?
Well, I knew it when I was playing NFS long long long time ago...=P
I owned a few cars in NFS..Isnt it nice if I actually own these cars in reality? XD
Blueks..XD And my favourite car in NFS was the car in the picture above..=P Did some modifications on that car too..
Cant really remember how it looked like..XD

Anyway..XD moving on..=D
So, I guess this will be my last post until SPM ends..=D
*I'm torturing myself.=P*
Gotta concentrate on my SPM..
I've been studying a lil here and there..
Hopefully, I'll be able to finish my revision in time.=)
Wish me best of luck~
I'll miss the Internet..=(
i wont be online from the 25th of October, 2010 until 8th December, 2010..
Hopefully, I have the strong will in me to keep myself motivated and also to push me to go through this crucial time of my life..
grhh..XD
I guess that's all for now..=)

Take care!
Cheers!
Anyeong..=P

"I'll be missing you..=("

~Amigo~

2010-10-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

How can I resist you?
Perhaps, you never knew..

grhh..
I hate this feeling..
seriously..=.=""
I dont know whether I should be mad about what's going on in me or what..
But, it's getting really irritating..
SPM is coming..and I cant seem to concentrate..
This not how it is supposed to go..
I needa do something.
I hate this feeling..
It hurts..Seriously..
When I sleep, it hurts even more..
How can I find something to cure it in a short time?
Damn..=(
And I thought I would never go through this anymore until SPM..
But, I guess I am wrong.I'm a weak person..pfft..=.="
I hate this feeling! There's nothing I can do..=.="
I've tried to ignore it..But, I guess I cant...
It hurts even more when I ignore..=(

Yesh~ I skipped school today because of the above...

Anyway..=P Dont worry about me..XD
I was just talking about my throat..=P
It hurts right now..XD grhh~..XD

Cheers~

"Less than three you..;D"

~And I've tried~

2010-10-17T22:05:00.003+08:00

Endure..
Just one word to explain everything that's going in my mind now~

Do you know what hurts the most?
Not knowing that you'll get all the consequences when you sacrifice so much..

Do you know what else is more painful than having your heart being pierced through?
Loving or caring for someone so deeply and knowing that you dont exist in his/her mind..~

Do you know what hurts more than getting your eyes blind by accident?
By looking at the people you love hurting you with their actions..

Do you know what hurts more than someone screaming so loudly directly into your ears?
By listening to those harsh and cold words being poured out from someone that you love...

Do you know what's worse than taking bitter food?
To know that you are numb and feelingless..

Boo~
Sorry for the emo post..
Exam stress..=(
Another 30++ days..And I'm free..=D
Cant wait..!

"Baby, the love I have for you is something I can measure or explain..=D"